Looking back, today it's been 8 month's since the stroke.  I think about that morning often. I imagine it would have been disorienting to have help of any kind in the condition I was in, but Covid added an extra layer. Suddenly, men in what I remember to be gas masks came into the room where I was slumped on the floor. They came from behind me and I don’t remember how they identified themselves. One was in front of me and the other was to my right. I know they asked me questions. I don’t remember what they asked, but I think I was able to answer them. My arm was still moving on its own. The man in front told me to stop moving my arm. My arm did not listen to his orders.​​

​GRATITUDE

1. Being able to raise my arm to my head
2. Watching Rob be a great fur papa
3. Walking barefoot outside

You can say I started this blog in August, but the truth is I just started writing things down. I actually began building this site in January and it has been a steady work in progress/failure - mostly failure. I don't remember things being so complicated. I've had WordPress blogs in the past (The Multi-tasking Mama) and they've made sense to me. So I tried creating a WordPress blog.  I guess it was not enough experience to draw from my memory.   Learning new things right now is confusing and challenging. It just never went anywhere.

So then I realized there are new sites out there - like Wix.  Who hasn't seen a commercial for Wix and how easy it is to build a site.  While it's easy, in theory, but it didn't make sense to me. So again I created a few wicks sites.  Each one just ended up getting messy. If you think about mixing colors, there's a point where things look okay and then almost suddenly too much happens and everything just turns a gross grayish-brown and there is no coming back.

It just got super messed up and unrecognizable from the template that was started. So I'd make a new site.  I remember reaching out to Maya, after I had made three sites in a row, and explaining the problem.I She immediately advised me to stand down and told me she would help me. It was probably something like, "Mom, stop making more sites".  So Maya had made her own website during her freshman year at school, and she's very comfortable using Weebly. So, that is why my site is on here.  She asked me what I wanted, what pages I needed, and in each page asked me what I wanted to use it for. She put it all together she created all of the templates.  Then she helped me understand what I needed to do and how to bring in the different elements. So yes, in theory creating a blog is easy. I think the first thing to know is what you want to write about, and then getting your kiddo to actually get it built.

​GRATITUDE
1.    Waking up rest, after accidentally taking over the full bed
2.    The joy and energy from Stevie who welcomes each day with a burst of life
3.    The  Boar's Head truck that overturn ed on the LIE keeping Rob home

​GRATITUDE
1.    Quiet time to cuddle and watch a movie in the morning
2.    Easter dinner with mom and pop 
3.    A friend since the 5th grade who's been there for every up and down

 GRATITUDE

1. Waking up early, on my own and feeling refreshed - a rare occurrence
2. A partner who makes helping me achieve my goals one of his priorities
3. Going with my mom to Gate of Heaven to bring a palm cross to my Abuela